Trying Again

 

Well, for the millionth time, I’m back. I doubt anyone out there noticed I was gone, or perhaps they did but it’s been so long they must’ve just forgotten about me!

So much has happened. Without trying really, I’ve lost 34 lbs! *cue applause*. I moved to a new country and the change in diet and lifestyle has made me functionally more fit. I’m so thankful for that. But I want to push and lose about 50 more pounds and now that I’m doing it consciously, I’m finding it tedious. Also, it seems like everyone around me is talking about diets and weight loss. I know this is a good things that people are trying to be healthier but it’s very annoying. As a morbidly obese person, I find that it would be impossible for me to go one day without hearing about calories, or points, or diets, or flab, or fat. If for one day I just wanted to step outside my house and forget about weight, I would have to avoid the media, reflective surfaces and WOMEN! We as women as obsessed with appearance. We all know and have been on at least one diet in our lifetimes and we’re all trying to lost something- whether it be 5 pounds so we can fit in to some dress or 200 lbs so we can finally feel good about ourselves. I just feel like there should be MORE we can talk about apart from weight and appearance. I am convinced that I can go weeks talking only with guy friends without ever once having the topic of weight come up! Sometimes I find it refreshing to talk to guys for that reason…when I’m with them (after I get over the fact that they could never be attracted to me the way I am) I get the rare opportunity to forget my weight altogether!- especially if I know I’m not trying in any way to impress them at all. hehe.

So! starting again…258.4. Let’s see if I can make it down to 200 before long!

Be encouraged!

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